Tuesday, October 30, 2012

This picture was drawn by Lola.

I think she had ireland on the brain when she drew it.

I have been thinking more and more about walking the ancient hills of my ancestors.

I am slowly starting to inquire about my bloodline there.

I am also very excited about inviting archangel Michael to join me in this journey.

The month of October was one of intense illness here at our home.

Lola contracted a wicked ass kicking case of whooping cough.

The poor thing coughed until her eyes bled and they were black and blue from the strain.

The cough was a horrible, possessive, turn you inside out, gut wretching, vomit inducing mega hard hitter, take your breath away invasion.

She suffered immensly. It was horrible to witness. We slept in a make-shift triage room in the bathroom for over two weeks. At first every hour she was awakened by a coughing attack. then eventually it was every two hours then three times or so a night. We were recently able to move back into a bed but still wake a couple of times each night to cough up phlem. Well, Lola coughs, I support her. It is such a scary cough.

And so, with the month of october coming to an end so does our month of quarantine. We are fit for public outings again. Just in time for...Hallowe'en. great.

Unfortunately this year I will be at school Hallowe'en night. I missed last week with Chloe in hospital and Lola still sick. It is hard to get caught up when each class is three hours.

Plus I am learning that my imagination isn't what I thought it was. Writing a story based on a prompt or idea that doesn't resinate with me is crazy hard....can't really get the creative juices flowing. I think I've lost some of the art of bullshitting. bummer.

Anyhow...since I am having trouble with my writing asignment I thought I'd pop on here...this neglected space...and just write.

and a little women, Tricia

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Amma Love

Amma : means "mother" in many languages

bliss : complete happiness
           paradise, heaven

ecstasy: a state of being beyond reason and self-control
              a state of overwhelming emotion;especially rapturios delight

joy : the emotion evoked by well being, success, or good fortune

grace : unmerited divine assistance given for humans for their 
            regeneration or sanctification
            a virtue coming from God

Universal Consciousness : undefined in the dictionary

My daughter, my daughter, my daughter, my daughter, my daughter the words whispered in my ear in sanskrit and english over and over again and again as I breathed in the etheral smell of roses and was rocked in her arms.

The Divine Mother, the Cosmic Presence, Grace Embodied, the Self-Realised Guru, Amma, oh my Amma.

There are no words to express the state of  peace and love that permeates every cell of every body graced with her presence. The vibration of love and compassion truly reaches an ecstatic state.

In her eyes you witnesss the universe expanding, your heart expanding, compassion towards everything and everyone expanding,love expanding.

Awe is everywhere.

You are experiencing miracles. You will never be the same.

Peace is felt.

Words are not needed. Smiles are abundant. There is no suffering in her presence.

Transformations take place before your humble human eyes.

As she stands before us on the stage, the makeshift temple , she scans the crowd. Her eyes touch and speak to each individual. Her eyes reach into your soul and they murmur in soft resounding whisperings "I love you" You are my child. Fear nothing and know that I am with you. I am you and you are me. You are never alone.

And then she showers us with petals. Annoints us with glorious blessings.

Jai! Jai! Jai!

Amma, oh my Amma.